Happy (belated) Independence Day!

The BIG Three O

Today I am mourning.

Mourning my twenties.

Because tomorrow they are gone forever.

The thought of it makes my insides twist with fear.

This transition scares me.


But honestly I'm trying really hard to be accepting of the frightful thirty. Learning to embrace the tiny lines around my eyes, the sun spots and the ruddy complexion I possess.


Aging is beautiful? I'm telling myself. I think the beauty in it comes not from the aging but from the accepting and rejoicing in the process.

I'll try. I'll try.

Surprise Party

(Tom with our nephew Jessie)

I was completely stressed and snappy and irritable in preparation for Tom's surprise graduation party. We had gotten home Tuesday night and the party was Friday night.
You can't even imagine the difficulty in arranging a surprise party for a man that is in the house night and day. Who asks me every half hour what I'm doing. Stands over me as I check my email. It seemed impossible that the surprise would not be leaked before the big night.

At one point during the day on Friday I suspected that he had figured it out. I had convinced myself that he knew for sure and just wasn't telling me. In my stress I confided in Mandi.

Me-"Every time he looks at me he has this huge smile on his face, I just know that he knows what's going on, but he's not saying anything and just toying with my emotions."

Mandi-"Tom always smiles when he looks at you."

True.
But I had my doubts.
Needless to say the surprise came off beautifully. Everyone was there when we walked in the door and a bazillion kids attacked him and screamed "Doctor Tom" at him.
It was awesome.
Amy provided the cake. Not only did it look incredible it tasted pretty good too.

A few of the party goers.

A few more.

Only a few of the children that we pushed out into the backyard. They were all a little too high with party excitement to contain themselves indoors.

Overall it was a lot of fun. I definitely couldn't have pulled it off without the help of Cyndee, Mandi and Amy. Thank you!!

And Tom quickly forgave me my craziness in the secret preparation. He was so not in the loop and super surprised, pulled off beautifully.

The Last Days (of our vacation)

Sunday after the graduation whirlwind we started our long trek home.

We drove to Denver the first day and stayed with Wally & Julie and my visiting Grandparents from the valley.

We are constantly dropping into their home on our visits to Iowa.

It consists of getting there in the evening and then leaving at the crack of dawn to continue driving.

So we decided, this being our last Iowa trip that we would stay a day and do something fun.

All of us loaded up on Monday and went to the Natural History Museum in Denver.

My Grandparents stayed behind, but Wally and Julie came with us.

Meteorites.
Hanging out with Grandpa Chambers.

My boys and a moose.

Collin and Caleb with caribou.

Talin with bigger ears.

The thought did run through my head that if I could only super glue those big ears on him he might listen better.

Talin and Collin being attacked by bears.

Collin and Tom with the dinosaurs.

Me and my boys.

We loved the museum and we love Wally and Julie for their constant hospitality in putting up with us each time we come through.

They were even patient with Caleb who had recently discovered his ability to kick and was constantly kicking the dogs as they walked by.

Awesome.

Anyone out there that thinks they can raise him to be sweet natured?

Please call me.

This picture wraps up the end of the trip.

The exhausting drive home on Tuesday.

It was long, it was fun and after being gone for ten days we were ready to get home.

Graduation Day

Saturday May 29th at 10:00 a.m. Tom graduated from medical school and officially became Dr. Tom.

Oh yeah.

The ceremony was very long so our good friend Lisa offered to take the boys during it. I was so anxious that I made the wrong decision and that they should have been there, but after sitting for 2 1/2 hours I was glad I let her take them. Even I was getting restless.

After the graduation we found Tom in the foyer with all the other graduates. It was so packed so we didn't stay for long.

We took a few pictures and then left for a graduation picnic thrown by our old ward in Des Moines. It was awesome to see everyone and catch up from the past year. We appreciated all the people that showed up to congratulate the new graduates and to see all the returning families.

I could not be more proud of Tom and all the he's accomplished. I'm glad we chose this road and I'm thrilled it's done, at least the school part.

Nauvoo Part II

In the evening the boys spent time at the pool. Karen and I would sit and watch all the fun. I couldn't go in because of my recent foot surgery, but it was entertaining to watch them all play.

Caleb loved being thrown up in the air. It only took me about twenty tries before I got an actual picture of it.

We spent our last day in Nauvoo exploring the renovated homes and taking an oxen ride. Talin still asks me occasionally if he can get a pet ox. Um, No!

On Wednesday we packed up and drove into Des Moines, Iowa. It was exciting to see our home again and our friends. The Greenwoods were nice enough to let us stay in their home for the next four days. It was awesome to see them and others we missed.

On Friday we attended the DMU Podiatry Banquet. It was fun to get dressed up and wear a boot on one leg and a heel on the other. Now that takes talent.

It didn't really hit me that this phase of our life was over until the night of the banquet. The reality that Tom had done all this work the past eight years blew me away. Starting out at NAU we never dreamed of going this far or making so many sacrifices. But it has all been worth it. I was so proud and amazed at all the time and effort he put into getting here. It made me realize how much we've grown together in the past ten years.

Me, Karen & Kraig.

Nauvoo Part I

May 22nd we loaded up the car, picked up Tom's parents and started our drive to Iowa.

Round Trip: 54 Hours in the car.
Stops: Denver, Clinton Missouri (to see Adam & Susan!!), Nauvoo Illinois, Des Moines, Denver & Home.

Sadly I didn't take any pictures with Adam & Susan and their cute kids. We only stayed for a day where Caleb managed to traumatize their little Emma more than once (sorry!). Once again proving that he's no lover and all fighter.

From their home we drove to Nauvoo and went immediately to the visitor's center and walked through the Women's Garden. This is my absolute favorite part of Nauvoo. I love the statues and I love the peaceful feeling you get walking through the garden.

Caleb loved the statues too.

A Lot.

Trying to keep these three reverent was impossible after the three days in the car getting here.
My cute boys!

Towards the end the statue loving got a little weird.

Nauvoo Temple

Headed over to the temple afterwards and took some pictures.

Kraig, Karen, me, Tom, Talin & Caleb.

(Collin's photographer)

The boys.

We also went on a wagon ride. It was so beautiful and the boys loved the horses.

Here I am

I sat down in March.
I didn't get up until June.

Okay, maybe that's not completely true, but it's how I feel.
Throughout all my crippled months life hasn't slowed.
Two surgeries.
Two birthdays.
One baptism.
Lot's of puking.
One hell of a road trip.
One BIG graduation.
One surprise party.
A whole lot of doctor's appointments.
Two hospital visits. One failed. One successful g-tube placement.
One big move.
And a family reunion.

For the first time I feel like blogging about it all.
Pics to come soon.

My New Norm

Having a baby like Caleb has changed my viewpoint on what's normal. I don't think I would even know what to do if I had another baby without any "problems". It would be weird.

For instance I never have to spoon food into my child's mouth or insist that he eats, or fret over him not eating. Actually, never mind, I do a lot of the last two things.

I know every ounce that goes into his tummy every three hours five times a day at a rate of 400 on our pump and a dosage of 140 cc's. I'm almost becoming a little math savvy these past two years.

It's become completely normal to be on the phone with doctors. I used to feel privileged to talk with an actual doctor on the phone and not the nurse, but now I just feel like it's my right.

Six doctors appointments in the week is not unusual. This next week alone we have feeding therapy, speech therapy, occupational therapy, cardiologist, gastrointerologist, and even a podiatry appointment (but that's for me!).

Cleaning up vomit is a regular occurrence. Even Caleb has become quite handy at cleaning up his own vomit. If he vomits on the floor it's not unusual for him to run to the cupboard with all the designated vomit clean-up rags and start cleaning up his own mess. So while being a complete pain with reflux he's quite helpful with the clean up. Sometimes....

Last week Jo and I sat on the couch and watched another regular occurrence. Caleb and his falling out g-tube. We looked out the window to see Tom walking around the yard checking each sprinkler. Walking behind him was Caleb with his g-tube out, holding his t-shirt up around his chest, and yelling at his father while following him around the yard. We were in hysterics. At least he knows it's suppose to be in and not out.

It's also become quite normal around here to feel a quiet gratitude for hearing loss. I mean you NEVER wish it on anyone, but once it's in your life, you might as well see the positives, right? Like the boys leaving for school this morning. Caleb has no idea, he can't hear the garage open or the door slam. No tears, just an effortless search around the house and acceptance. He also sleeps well through screaming cousins, loud parents and a horrible echoing house. And besides, is there anything cuter than his little tiny hearing aides? All the old snowbirds love him at Wal-Mart too!

Talin Milestones

April 22nd Talin turned 8.

Which means he is now officially a CubScout.

And he also got baptized last Saturday.
Aren't they cute?
It was such a special day for Talin and for us. We were so excited for him and the Bishop had some pretty amazing things to say about our little boy. We're both humbled and blessed to be raising him.

Talin and best friend/cousin Wesley.

Talin & Collin

The Family

Talin with his dad & Grandpa Chambers.

I'll probably post more photos because Amy made a fabulous cake that she took pictures of, and she took some family pics of us that probably turned out better than mine.



And finally I'm concerned about Caleb.

At church yesterday I looked at him and realized he had huge bags under his eyes and dark red-rimmed lines. Do you think he's turning into Benjamin Button??

Eight

Happy Birthday Talin

Talin has decided to be baptised a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

Saturday, May 8th @ 1:00 pm

3025 S. Hawes Rd., Mesa AZ

We are so proud and excited for him and this big step in his life, he truly is the most amazing kid ever.

We love you Tal!